wistful thinking
Dec. 5th, 2010 12:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sadie_cocopuffthis morning i wore my french sweater dress and boots, and wished i were clicking down the cobbled streets of poitiers and drinking café au lait from cute little cups instead of coming home from church to put on pajamas and commence the usual sunday marathon of grading and lesson planning. i like teaching, but i dislike not having enough energy for the adult life i could be having right now. bryan is a reasonably interesting city with a fair number of cool things going on, and i'm always too tired and/or sick to take advantage of them. i make it through the week so i can sleep 10 hours a night on the weekend.
case in point: i planned to go hang around first friday (in the aforementioned sweater dress and boots, like a classy adult instead of an exhausted teacher) while my brother went to a school party and my parents celebrated their anniversary. but by 7 p.m. i looked (and felt) so deathly my mom sent me home out of fear i wouldn't be able to drive safely much longer. i was asleep by 9. where is the life i was looking forward to having? it was much the same way at midd -- too many things to do, not enough energy to keep up. for heaven's sake, tell me it gets better.
post 20+ hours of sleep, i'm awake enough to contemplate my work without feeling like curling up and dying, but the tired-by-tuesday, sick-by-wednesday, well-by-sunday, wash/rinse/repeat schedule is getting to me. christmas will be wonderful but too short, what with grading exams and putting together spring syllabi and planning for the first week back. oh, and creating a curriculum for my elective, which is happening. i am pleased about this, but daunted by the amount of extra work it will require.
in sum: tiredtiredtiredSOtired. help?
case in point: i planned to go hang around first friday (in the aforementioned sweater dress and boots, like a classy adult instead of an exhausted teacher) while my brother went to a school party and my parents celebrated their anniversary. but by 7 p.m. i looked (and felt) so deathly my mom sent me home out of fear i wouldn't be able to drive safely much longer. i was asleep by 9. where is the life i was looking forward to having? it was much the same way at midd -- too many things to do, not enough energy to keep up. for heaven's sake, tell me it gets better.
post 20+ hours of sleep, i'm awake enough to contemplate my work without feeling like curling up and dying, but the tired-by-tuesday, sick-by-wednesday, well-by-sunday, wash/rinse/repeat schedule is getting to me. christmas will be wonderful but too short, what with grading exams and putting together spring syllabi and planning for the first week back. oh, and creating a curriculum for my elective, which is happening. i am pleased about this, but daunted by the amount of extra work it will require.
in sum: tiredtiredtiredSOtired. help?
